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Sunday, 23 August 2015

THE WOMEN




Its 3a.m ..just finished watching GRAN TORINO nth time..sleep eluded and was spending time just like that listening to some random songs ..Was just back from a road trip and frames that were captured just passed by.The journey was rejuvenating..in fact a great relief to the monotony..new people ..new thoughts and cool Bangalore city..But whatever thought it is ,it finally converged to  a single point..thoughts about her ,my beloved.

Its been 3 + years..first meeting ,first phone call,transfer..a lacunae..voice on other side again..sleepless nights and chatter..slowly things were transforming..from a reader of my SMS to reader of my mind,probably she is the only one who can, and to my soul mate and partner.She bought meaning to my days that were otherwise  just passed by..

The job and responsibility took her to different time zone...initial days that were horrible  but slowly coped up...but my days are not the same..tries to keep myself busy so that i wont have other thoughts
but the reality is otherwise..i missed her every moment.the things she said and did was all around the air..sometime all i could do is that to stare outside helplessly..



Thursday, 9 January 2014

SOLACE




Things were out of place, it seemed like everything went out of control. Finished final review of third semester bid adieu to all my friends and classmates. I could fathom restlessness among my classmates who selected me as their REP. Some even threw a look as if I ruined their future. They expected legerdemain, and they still do. But the flow of things was sluggish.
Nothing around could grab my attention, I felt like l was suffering from ADD. Time was around ten at night and I decided to go for a stroll inside the campus. The atmosphere was very tranquil out there. I felt inexplicably composed. Trees were on either side of the road, which formed a canopy. The mist formed an aura around the trees.it was beauty all around .I walked alone. There wasn’t even slightest perturbation in the soothingly cold surroundings. I felt the still air; I felt the cold--the state of blissfulness.
Walking, I was totally lost in the nature. Suddenly, a feeble music seized my attention. The sound emanated from the ground premise which was at the end of the road. It was my favorite song. I increased the pace of walking, to catch the song. Now I could hear the song “BLAME IT ON MY ADD”.
I was surprised to see my friend, AB, sitting there on the bench holding his phone and contemplative or rather introspective. Usually a jovial soul, who never holds his tongue, was now tacit. I was really surprised to see him there. I sat beside him.
“I am totally disturbed dude. I can’t get those faces out of my mind. They are haunting me like anything”. After a pause he continued. “My friend dropped in today. She is working with an NGO.Along with her I chanced to visit an old age home. An old age home, where all the occupants were treated well. They got food, medicine and all the care at right time. They had all the luxuries, but no one seemed happy, in fact they wasn’t. Every face beard same look. A few inmates were exchanging some words. I went to one of them, I talked to her but she didn’t reply..she gazed at me for a long time.i could see tears coming out of her eyes..she then uttered “my grandchild will be of your age now”……I wiped her tear ..we talked ..talked a lot..though initially hesitant,she talked a lot..i saw smile on her face,sparkling in her eyes..most of the time she talked about her family”..
He continued…”I don’t know how do you feel..This might seem something clichéd to you..what you see in TV ,what you read in paper…its commonplace now..but when I experienced that I was really…really moved..”.“you know what her problem really was???she did not have any one to share with…probably you might know what you feel as a kid if u don’t see your mother for a long time…same feeling I perceived in mother today who is away from her kids….its strange….”
We sat there …..it was silence all around now.

Thursday, 12 September 2013

THE LITTLE THING :)



Past few days were marked with oddities..through and through..in and out..

It’s been raining outside …raining incessantly…raining for past few days!!!..rain in Chennai..as far as I’m  considered  rain in Chennai is an erraticity….
I was on a movie spree…just done with dirty harry series. The legendary eastwood movies!!!Felt like switching on to Hitchcock thrillers. But, its midnight time..the room is chilled..an inkling to crash!!

Have been lying with eyes closed for a long time…sleep eluded me…rain lashed at the window panes and few drops spattered on my face…I plugged the earphones and played “RAIN DROPS KEEP FALLING ON MY HEAD” and walked towards the window…

 I always loved to stare out of window when it’s raining….the street is flooded...the murky water-a mix of rain and sewage -is flowing vehemently…the streets and roads through which I have been commuting for past one month is inundated…I felt so happy…perhaps first time in life on such a scale. Happy to be in a state of innocence- with much less thoughts -, heeding to little things I was surrounded with… I wondered.. Why was I oblivious to the fact that these things existed around me??

Its always petty things that make life so amazing…these petty things are pretty (not from aesthetic point of view)..and the petty moment of this pretty petty things is ever pervasive…i  was inordinately happy and dialed my petite friend ..

“Well..I’m happy that I got a call from you…but I would have been more happy If u had acknowledged my calls earlier in the day..have you ever cared  of me??Are you even aware that such a soul exists here on earth??Just check your call log and try to understand how desperately I was trying to get you on call…and now you calling and talking philosophy and all those nonsense at this unearthly hour…and even now  you dint care to ask why did I call..im not complaining please try to understand….”……continued and I listened patiently .. The rhetorical voice on the other end almost broke into tears and it gave me the answers to the questions to which I was wondering!!!

At the end, it was an ILU little moment followed by appeasing moments…. :)
 

Accompanied by Kenny Rogers singing you and I ..

“All the love we had
I should have known our love was older than past
Throwing my life away on songs I never heard
Just the speaking of a special word
I made you die inside but you loved me”

Wednesday, 4 September 2013

Dis`qui´et`tude



“If I write what I feel, it is to reduce the fever of feeling .What I confess is unimportant, because everything is unimportant”
                                                      -Fernando Pessoa


I am overwhelmed; I am possessed by a feeling. A feeling that is inexplicable. It’s lingering. ..Not willing to wane away. From the very start of the day I joining the tier one institute of India, it sprouted. Self-nurtured and fostered its growing. I wonder how?? , without even getting a skosh caring, how it’s getting stronger??!!
 I was the architecture of my own life, hereafter it will be the same. Decisions-lackadaisical to be best described-thinking to be prudent and judicious was an outcome of arrogance and ego. It never came from composed mind, it was never wise-though sometime the contrary happened out of sheer luck.
I never knew what I wanted, but knew what I dint. And hence once I wrote...” I would like to tender my resignation”. But I was still confused was it the right time??....dichotomies were the hard part always!!!
Then the much touted new life begined…the scorching sun….happiness..fun..dilemmas..predicaments….blues…dreams….responsibilities..Within a blink of eye one year passed..
Second year…a chance to part of something which I yearned for long..happiness..fun…suddenly dichotomy???!!!
But I doubt the veneer of certitude of this dichotomy….because I doubt whether it exist .
Probably the sadistic part is playing to deploy chaos and to increase the entropy..a universal truth..the entropy of universe always increase. But I presume, within oneself, the disquietude augments only if u let it to be..
The thoughts can be vicious and virtuous at the same time…it can be a smooth criminal…don’t let it hit you..
I think I  must sign off …feel like listening smooth criminal by MJ..  ;)

Sunday, 1 September 2013

Smoke at engineers kitchen ;neighbors mistakes it as fire accident and calls fire force

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Smoke at engineers kitchen ;neighbors mistakes it as fire accident and calls fire force-MAVERICK TIMES report

September 1 2013                                                                                                              by dk



CHENNAI:The day started with a spell of frantic activity as neighbors mistook kitchen smoke as fire accident. The embarrassing incident happened at 9:00 AM, in a house at seva nagar second street, a street abutting IIT M campus, occupied by a bunch of students from NIT Trichy . The neighbors, usually tacit and unconcerned where excited and exhilarated expecting some tragic mishaps, however, were  let down when they learned it was a mere kitchen smoke.
                    “It was a casual Sunday morning and everything was as usual. I have been residing here for more than three years, but never witnessed a tragedy, mishap or not even petty skirmish to satisfy our sadistic pleasure. But, all of a sudden something extraordinary was happening, smokes were coming out and the whole scene was like hell. Knowing the tenants are engineering students we never suspected a kitchen fire at 9.00 am, because this is an unearthly hour for them and they will be in deep slumber. So we informed fire force.” Reit, an IT company employee told to MAVERICK TIMES. “The incident was a great relief considering our stressful IT life”. He added
                   Mystery enveloped the entire incident and none of the students were available for comments. However, MAVERICK TIMES persisted and contacted one the occupant over the phone. The occupant who ain’t wanted to reveal his identity gave some categorical information.
 According to him, one of their friends, nicknamed THIN (the guy is fat in real .actual name not revealed) was making some desperate attempt to make breakfast. Usually itinerant, who never visits abode, was showing some bizarre and puzzling behavioral pattern.
 “For the past few days he was visiting home, sleeping before midnight and he even started eating homemade food. We never expected him to make an effort to cook. But we are happy that he got an inkling to cook which we can utilize in subsequent days.We are expecting more from him!!!!(?????)”.He added. 
  It is also reported that THIN was on a shopping spree and purchased branded underwear (which he ws wearing when incident occured)for whopping  amount which subsequently made him bankrupt and was starving for days.
 According to experts, the starving might have made him lose some fat the consequence of which was not being able to wear the underwear which he bought for exorbitant price
”The ramifications of such incidents is devastating and he might have developed mental agony which subsequently led to delirium which eventually lead him to cook of his own” .Mr .M A.,Dept of psychology,T-TIN opined.
              However, when contacted THIN on the same, he spoke indistinctly.”If u cook, they cook I cook also”. 
           MAVERICK TIMES, with the help of experts are trying to decipher this abstract statement.!!!